50 Claps brave writeup - the only way I have found to live in a world where death is the only truth — is to embrace it- " I am already dead, so what am I gonna do with my life today, this second or minute" For me it worked. I grew up in a place where half of my friends were killed by the streets.

Your experience with death is much more intense but it seems you have prepared and that means you can now live again.

I wish you and your loved ones a long life.