Someone ex military gave me a book when I was 20 that showed how to communicate with ******** and it all involves consciousness. I didn't open it till my 40s and gave it a go. Within 10 seconds I fecking freaked out and stopped -cut off the "connection". I clearly advised whomever I had connected with that I wasn't ready. The last message to me was "we are here when you are" it wasnt in words but clear as a bell.

I dont have that book anymore - it went missing. Seriously went missing and part of me is glad and part of me is pissed. I am the kind of person that never loses anything.

The universe will unfold in its own time - so I wait and enjoy this human spaceship.